Often there were days when my Mom would tell me Tumhare andhar bohat ehsaas hai, aur yeh ehsaas kabhi kabhi ghuttan deti hai. She was saying “you carry too much emotion, and sometimes this much emotion can be overwhelming; it can be stifling.” I would laugh her off and say that I am absolutely fine the way I am. Now, years later, I sit here upset because I know a friend who is going through something tragic and I can’t stop thinking about her. Just a day ago, I was overflowing with joy because I found out my relatives from Pakistan were finally coming to NY soon to be with us. Life is just a carousel of emotions, and we are just visitors, going round and round.

For the past week I’ve been dealing with heartbreak of a different kind. All these emotions all at once in my heart has been overwhelming, and I find solace in my prayers but also in the sweet melody of Beethoven’s Moonlight Sonata. I press play, put my head down, and drown the world away. Moments like these make you wonder, which of the two extremes would you rather be, someone who feels too much, or someone who feels nothing at all? What is life but a fleeting glimpse of emotions, heartache, love, sadness and death. As I sit here with a heavy heart, a whirlwind of thoughts brewing in my mind, I thought it best to convey this message to the universe and see how you all feel.

How do you deal with caring and loving too much? Is it better to love immensely, or not love at all?

xoxo.

4 thoughts on “I love love, and its simple as that.

Add yours

  1. Hello and lovely to meet you! I’m instantly fond of your writing style and content too. I can relate to the trials, beauty and agony of feeling too much, too soon and often. I cannot even bear to watch the suffering of an animal on the television.
    But if the alternative is to move calmly through life: to feel steady emotion …. or worse, to fake feelings (as a narcissist might) …. I’m thrilled to be just like you! 🙏🏻 🌸

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Thank you so much for the kind words. You have made my day. I was worried about putting myself out there on the internet but the past two days have been so welcoming.

      I feel the same exact way; I’d rather know I gave it my all in my relationships with everyone, no matter where it may lead. Love is all-healing and I’d rather go to bed at night knowing everyone I care about knows how much I love them. 💕

      Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

Create a free website or blog at WordPress.com.

Up ↑

%d bloggers like this: